upset..very upset...my happiness versus everyone else's in the world...why can i choose what i want in life...why?

smthings in life i just dont understand

*sniff*

my bad year is turning into my worse year.

i begged my parents to let me go back to spore today...and it doesnt seemed to be materialising..either my method is SUPER BAD or i just asked at the wrong time of the day.. my parents apparently didnt say YES but they didnt say NO either... so its kinda in the middle of nowhere...kinda pissed off and stuff.. i thought they would let me go cos i asked them on my bdae...i didnt get anything at all for my bdae but i just made a simple wish so that my parents would let me go back for 2 weeks to spore..im reallie sad right now.. spore's been my life and verything to me..all my friends are there and i just dont understand why my parents are making such a big fuss out of everything everytime i wanna go back. i wish i stayed in spore...life sucks in indo and i totally dont like it being here AT ALL..later on when i grow up (which i already am) i dont want to stay in indo at all.. i wanna stay in spore or melb or anywhere else in the world BUT indo.. i reallie hate being in indo and i would get the hell out of here once im able to..

life is bad
life sucks
its goin to be a bad year